One of Those Days

Yesterday was one of those days....

You know, the days where you eat breakfast (I'm not proud - it was a reheated piece of pizza) at noon and don't get out of your pajamas until 2:00 and then don't actually do anything productive until 3:30 when your significant other is just getting home from work. These days were an impossibility before I was a mother. Now they seem like a necessity. They happen without any warning. I wake up in the morning with full intentions of doing SOMETHING, but then the hours just slip away as I play with Kiera, try desperately to sneak a shower in somewhere, look for a brief moment to sort laundry, and so on.

I'm pretty hard on myself when it happens because in my pre-mommy world, a non-productive day was the worst day. I was a total go-getter, priding myself on to-do lists and how many items I could cross of in a day. My perspectives and interests have changed, and I am starting to recognize it as a beautiful thing. Now I find myself dreading the day that I actually have to go back to work full-time. I know that I will find a balance between work and family, but for now, there is no balance. I am all family.

Jeff and I took Kiera and Ollie on another walk today. This time around Witch Hole. It was overcast, but the leaves are so beautiful and we had a great time. While we were walking I started to tell Jeff about how odd it feels to have no drive or desire to work. I feel like I could easily spend everyday meeting friends for coffee with Kiera in tow, taking her for long walks, running errands and cleaning the house. As always, he responded by being supportive. He told me that it is ok to feel this way and that I should enjoy every second. It means that I love Kiera and my job as a mommy, and there is nothing wrong with that.

I'm reminded to take one day at a time. I have a tendency to get ahead of myself sometimes, but I just need to focus on RIGHT NOW...

Right now, I am in a loving relationship with an incredible man who supports me in everything that I do. I love his daughters as if they were my own... I share in the excitement of their achievements and the frustration of their silly teenage thought processes. I have a beautiful baby who makes me smile. I want to teach her what it means to have self respect, be considerate, fun, creative, kind, and reliable. I have the ability to lead by example today and everyday. I own a business that is in good hands at the moment, and I can ease myself back into the picture when I'm ready. What more could a girl ask for? Life can be pretty overwhelming, but when you just focus on what is happening today and in this moment it all seems so manageable ... and wonderful.

Here are some photos from our walk around Witch Hole.... I wish that they weren't so pixelated. Maybe it is because they are from my iphone? But you get the idea!

Happy One Month B-Day Kiera!

Wow - I never thought that I would be a "blogger." But now, with the arrival of Kiera, a family of 5, and the start of my own business, it seems like there is more to report and remember. Being a mother has made me  slow down and to appreciate and remember all of the little things.  Hopefully this blog will help me to do just that. Maybe one day Kiera can read it and be reminded of how much we all loved her from the very start. Or maybe Lexi and Serena can look back on it and realize that we did some pretty fun things and weren't the worst and most evil parents in the world after all :)  Just kidding girls.

So here goes nothing...

After the torrential downpour that we had last night, I was surprised to find that today was absolutely beautiful. We ate a yummy meal at Side Street with Lexi and Aunt Emo, which was a perfect start to the day. We had made plans to go to Super Wal Mart, but quickly realized that it just felt WRONG to be in a Wal Mart while the sun was shining, so Jeff and I took Kiera and Ollie on a walk down the Shore Path.  It was a great opportunity to use the new B.O.B stroller that John got us as a gift. I had one of those days where I was just full of gratitude to be living on this incredible island. I mean, people travel from all over the world to see this place and here we are... everyday! Here are a few photos from our walk.

Here you will see that it is daytime, so Kiera is fast asleep :) She needs to get her rest for the party that she will have all night long.

After 40 years of living on MDI, Jeff discovers Balance Rock for the 1st time. 

After our walk, we headed into town to visit our friends at Leary's Landing. 2 of our closest friends, Peter and Christina, own the pub and it is where Jeff and I met, so we have many good memories there. Christina wished Kiera a happy 1 month b-day and they got to snuggle a bit.

This past month with Kiera in our lives has been pretty incredible. I can't believe how quickly it has flown by.  Everyday we learn more about her and what she likes and dislikes. For example, she loves riding in the car or the B.O.B and dozing off.  She also likes to lay in the kitchen on the sheepskin that Memere gave her while we all get ready for dinner. Her favorite thing though is probably taking showers. It is the funniest thing. We put her in her little bath seat on the floor of the shower and she lays there with the water rushing all over her. It's pretty darn cute.

Last night was our first real experience with a sleepless Kiera. Jeff and I had been in a quasi-sleep for hours while Kiera grunted, cried, ate and fussed. I admittedly started to get frustrated. So, I sat up, turned on the light, calmed down and started to feed her. After she was done eating she just relaxed in my arms and started to smile and it made everything else melt away. Tears started streaming down my face. I couldn't help but to cry from complete happiness. Who cares about sleep! I would take a Kiera grin over a night of sleep anytime.

Lexi just came in and effortlessly lulled Kiera to sleep (THANKS LEX!!) and so I am going to take advantage of this time and get some rest myself.